After the medication prescribed by the specialist finished and the pain did not subside, the surgery was performed. The whole journey was documented by me and it was a bit graphic but then again, I felt vindicated in a way because the tests that was performed from the endoscopy, colonoscopy, blood, urine & faeces all proved negative!
It was relief at my end and I know for certain that life totally has changed for me ever since. Usually, when a person is faced with the prospect of surgery and the prospects of not knowing what is attacking you, you tend to fall back on something that relies on mostly your faith. I guess, I became a more religious person after this incident and that every moment of my day, I count my blessings and also for a fact, thank the good Lord above for His sustenance during those times of hardship. In my mind, I had an emotional journey but at the end of it, I've learnt to value life more affectionately and jealously guard it, since it is the so precious!
The times I spent in the hospital recovering and also the times, of loneliness made me feel that even though I was given this painful experience, I know that it had a purpose. The purpose has made me to be more tougher in life and also to take things with a pinch of salt. No use in squabbling and fighting over mundane things, let it be and just remove that chip of our shoulders, then the world would be a better place? I'm not sure about others, but for me, it has helped me see things differently, evaluate people but not with a pre-determined judgement attached to it. I guess, I'm just lucky to be alive today to say all of this.
Another aspect that made me achieve my goals was when I was lying in bed feeling all weak and wasted, I promised myself that I will work hard to make myself and my body stronger. That, I have achieved thus far, signed up in a gym and engaged a PT instructor to help me and one year later, I have found that my body has progressed from that time of sickness to now. I want to prepare myself mentally and also bodily that I can achieve what I desired in my life, if only I want it. No use in wanting something but not putting our concerted effort into it! So, today, I have made some of my friends envious of me, for the progress that I have achieved on my body. I know it was through sweats and also some mishaps before this happened, and although its not like that type of bodies we see in all hunky studs, at least I know that for now, I have already toned and shaped it to the level that I have so desired!
working hard to achieve my goals...
4 comments:
First, I'm thankful that you pulled through that medical incident. Indeed, it seems that we only truly appreciate our health when it becomes threatened.
Second, I'm proud of you for turning that incident into something positive. You set out to improve your body, and you've already made such fantastic progress towards your goal! :-)
Adversity makes us stronger, not weaker. Some people would have accepted defeat, but you chose to fight! :-)
Good work and well done dude. I always believe, the only way to discover the limit of the possible, is to go beyond them into the POSSIBLE! As long as you have the determination, put in enough efforts, it will be bearing fruits. Although at times, things might not be going the way we want it to be, but I am sure it won't be the worst too :P
There's always a reason for something to happen even if it's something bad... a reason for you to learn from it. =)
I will always treasure the times when I was admitted to the hospital. Will never forget that experience and from that, I guess, I have learnt to be much more focused in the priorities in my life.
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