Saturday, September 29, 2007

WOLVES IN SHEEP COVER!

I'm flying high...



So, I have not been updating on my blog for some days now and one of the major reasons is not because I was being depressed or anything after my last post about office politics, but rather the fact that I was much more involved with my facebook application. Yes, that facebook thingy is really driving me nuts (in a positive way) with all the drinks buying, poking about, sending gifts (and actually seeing your gifts grow, trying to anticipate what kind of thing will end up) and games, online games...like Scrabble and Warbook. There is a also this application that tests your IQ level and so far, I'm above average (phew...thought I was going ballistic anal about it!)


It's good to see myself being in the above average bracket grouping. And, there is application that turns people into zombies, werewolves and also vampires...so far, I have infected 2 persons and I do need that extra points to grow, so any bloggers out there who has indeed a facebook account or about to have one, please inform me, so that I can add you in my listing?

Apart from that major distractions, after my last post on OPs, I decided to that arrange myself in the best manner and also play along. I seek advice from my friends and the told me that at times, its best to just play along with the situation at present. If one does not do anything about it, one can be crucified in a manner that is not to pretty. But, of course I do my adaptions, after all, my life of existence on earth is not of one being a softy but rather a fighter! I fight for the major causes in my life and I do excel in them at times.

Not to brag about it but I always remind myself to be humble at all times. Like the proverbial advice given in the Bible," BE LIKE WOLVES IN SHEEP'S CLOTHING". In dealing with matters of this world, it is best to act innocent but in reality, be prepared at all times to face the imminent dangers.

Therefore, not a loser but a fighter and even if I fall, its only a temporary setback....till then...have a good weekend guys!

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

THE ONE WITH THE OPs!

leechers suck...ewww




Dear Blog


Its already 5.48am as I write to you. I'm not sure why I had chosen to do this as this hour but seriously, I do feel rejuvenated from my rest but one thing that I failed to understand thus far, is the going-ons in the office.


Yes, the office has beseiged me once again with a deluge of problems. Not so much of my work related items but rather more towards the day to day relationship between co-workers and also peers.


Its the most dreaded stuff of all, OFFICE POLITICS! (OPs) I know countless updates on this has been posted by others but then, now its my turn to do so. I have no qualms whatsoever if it fell on me if I had started it but, I have not even did anything yet there are others who are against me or jealous of what I'm capable of doing.


When I do not mix around (for the sheer reason of not wanting to get too involved), I'm labelled as cold and aloof. When I do not participate in their little chitty chatty, again I'm given the label as someone who is selfish. When I do not mix with them in their activities or even to go out simply for a meal, I'm labeled as being "action" or better terms, someone who thinks that he is superior than them, hence, I do not want to join them.


But, when I heard that I was finishing my work on time, and also going home earlier than them, I was being labelled as free and also not having the workload that they have. When I hit my targets (even though some months I did not), these leechers will pin-point and say "See because he has few accounts and very easy ones, that is why he hits his targets!"


Such unfounded statements make me sick at times, simply because, they chose to look at my sucess and envy them for it, and instead of devising new ways to approach to simplfily their work processes or even to look at other angles to work on a solution, they chose to utter such hurtful words! I'm not taken aback by these statements, because I know myself. I know I have my limitations and I know how to work smartly to overcome them. Some times they work, some times, they don't, but I do it on my own accord. Perhaps I spend more time during work to work rather than delve in unnecessary conversations, that makes me finish them on time? However, green eyes abound in whatever you do and these leechers will never totally be at peace until they have sucked out the very life of a person.


I'm not telling you blog, that I have been a goody two shoes all this time. I have my failings and as human, I have tried to be the best in the standards laid out. However, how careful I tread along, I feel that its never enough. This could also be because people simply does not take too kindly on what you do. After all, I had once explained my peculiar behavior to them, of how I work and how I play, but I guess, as leechers, as they do not think like humans, they tend to forget. They would rather forage in the dark slimy underworld, sucking off the very limits of human faeces to sustain their lifestyle.


At times, I'm just fed up, but many a times, I feel vindicated, even if this has been brought to the Management, I believe that they have eyes to see. After all, results are what the ultimate point in one's success, and lamenting on their own weaknesses and pointing out the success of others, really makes them stupid. Its like washing their own dirty linens and exposing their own shortfalls infront of Management.


Well, Blog, I really have to salute the head of all leechers, the mother of all ===> L.A.M (Lame And Mean). I know vindication will eventually show up because I always live up to this believe "WHAT COMES AROUND GOES AROUND", maybe not so soon but it will eventually arrive. As an action has been made, there will abound a reaction to this, and far more worse will befall on those who propagate this kind of lifestyle!


Saturday, September 22, 2007

5 THINGS IN MY....

5 things I would like to confess to...



I was tagged by Strictly Gay to announce to the world the following 5 things in my....


Since salvation has not been accorded to me, I have no choice but to compile to this little request...


5 things in my...


BAG


1. Toiletries

2. Gym clothes

3. Underwear

4. Hair Wax

5. Protein Shaker


WALLET


1. Cash (of course, duh)

2. 3 credit cards

3. Gym membership card

4. ATM cards (3 of them)

5. MediClinic card


ROOM


1. Bed

2. Color television

3. DVD player

4. Hi-Fi set

5. Laptop


5 Things I Like To Try...


1. Take one year paid leave and travel all over the US and Europe (working part-time at the same time)

2. Be a chef

3. Make out with Daniel Wu (yes I secretly want that fantasy fulfilled)

4. Be a member of Parliament

5. Have a son / daughter


5 Things I'm Doing Now...

1. Writing this meme

2. Writing this meme

3. Writing this meme

4. Writing this meme

5. Writing this meme


Well, finally, I got this out of my chest. And, if you are reading this and its still the weekend, have a great one, of what is left of it.


Friday, September 21, 2007

THE ONE WITH THE HALF PAST SIX NEIGHBOR

What do you do when you encounter a neighbor who has gone mad? I mean, seriously, I'm actually living next to one. Day in day out, this guy will shout for no reasons, talk to himself and better still if anyone parks outside his house, he will scold them in abusive words or even colorful words.


The whole neighborhood knows about this and all this while, word have been abuzz of how to treat this guy. OK, this guy is in his early 50-ish, lives alone and surprisingly, is still working. No one actually knows about his life except to say that he was not like this before. As neighbors, we talked and we got to know his family members too; that consisted of 7 persons inclusive of the parents. I believe he is child #4 (3 girls, 2 boys). His family is also quite tragic, in the sense, there is no family ties whatsoever that binds them together. I do not see his other brothers or sisters come visit him and most of the time, he is staying in this house, which i believe he inherited from his parents, who have died a long time ago.


His sudden strange behavior started only like last year but it was confine to talking to himself and violent outburst of scolding the other neighbors persisted on only quite recently. Most of us are just terrified that he might run amok and start killing the residents here! So, what do we do? What rights do we have to remove him from here? Calls to his immediate family members have not produce any concrete answers. There is one sister who would come visit him and after a while, things got back to normal. The usual shouting and talking out loud became less and we believe that this could be attributed to medicines being prescribed.


But, just today, I had to come home to pick up some stuff. As it was only for a while, I did not park inside my house and just left my car between the borders of the side road. As I manoeuvred my car, he began to shout and shout. My head was thinking, should I park or should I not park? I'm not sure what to expect, besides, I thought maybe as neighbors, he might give me a chance by not shouting at me! Boy, was I wrong!


He called me names (all sorts and his voice was loud). For once in my life, I did not walk off, I just stood there and he shouted at me even louder. Then, I began to call his name, but he shouted even more. Fear did crept in, but I did not allow that to bother me. I ventured to my house and as I walked into the compound, he began his tantrums and even looked at me very violently. I stared back and looked him straight to his eyes! I was not going to be combed into fear just because you are mad. I have my rights and if he did the first move, I will just retaliate. Not to succumb to this kind of fear, I just looked at him, pity was all I had in my mind. I didn't retaliate nor did I exercised any provocations, I just let it be. The shouting then stopped because I know if I stoop to his level, I think I might just aggravate the whole situation. This time, I began level headed and instead of acting like the bitch that I can be, I just walked off, not because I was a coward, but because I had more sense to deal on this especially if it involves a mad man!

I have a mad neighbor..rescue me?

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

THE FAIRLY TALE

man's best friend for lonely periods of time...



“After four and a half years, the fairy tale finally came to an end,” lamented The PBF to me the other day. Looking at him puzzled, I was trying to piece together this statement.

“What happened?” trying to hide my puzzled face (as I know what it meant when he said this).

“As of today, I’m officially single and available. Welcome to the world of mindless sex and sauna visits,” he added.

Shocked as I was to hear this, I enquired what happened?

“Long story, I told him that I can never forgive him for what he did to me; after 5 times, even a Monk will lose patience” he retorted.

From here, I guess this has to be infidelity. I began to reason out by saying, “Four years is not a short time. Remember those times you guys were separated for a year? How much faith you had of him and how much of him towards you! Also, after tolerating for all these years, weren’t there some sort of understanding or agreement that this unfaithfulness business should be avoided at all costs?”

“It hurts too much to go on and I really do not like what I have gone through this. Look, he actually cheated on me for several times now, and all these times, I have not bat an eyelid until just recently” he began to quiver in his answer.

“How did you find out?” I inquired.

The PBF looked away. I know that from his expression, he didn’t want to answer my question. He looked forlorn and just wanted to skip it but he owed me this last piece of information. I wanted to know, he wanted to tell but he was not in that position to move from it. However, seconds later, he managed to pluck up his courage. Swallowing whatever that was in him, he began to tell me softly.

“Actually, that day, I happened to logged into his very personal diary and in it, to my horror, I found out about his tryst behind my back. All this time, he was fucking lying to me and using me to his advantage. He really stabbed my heart and now, it hurts and I do not want to give him anymore chances”.

I looked at The PBF and hugged him. No amount of words or consolation will be able to heal a heart that is betrayed. What one feels is always hurt and revengeful after such an incident. So, at that few seconds, we decided not to engage into any conversation but rather instead delve on what he would be doing in the coming months.

Love is a funny thing. It can work very well for those who truly believe in them or it will just backfire. There are statistics that show infidelity is one common subject that puts pressure on most couples and at the same time, its also one of the better known weapons for destruction in a happy relationship. Or the emergence of third parties that come in between? I’m beginning to be very skeptical about relationships and about people telling me that they want eternal love. How on earth can one attain eternity when our mortal bodies do not live pass a certain age? Surely, we will one day die of diseases or sickness or even accidents? Or if some are lucky, live way pass to their good old age?

I know that there are relationships out there, which work out, and I congratulate them, but how many can we sustain it, is another question. I’m not being negative on this aspect but experiencing and talking to so many people, I began to wonder if people are what or who they say they are. From the most intimate relationships that have lasted for years, I’ve also found out that there are instances where they have adopted the open relationship type. Don’t ask and don’t tell, is their motto, and seems to work out well for some. But, very rarely, do you find a couple that really attest to the fact that their love life is still blossoming well and growing stronger each day. I guess that is all in fictional books, and as most of us like to read, we tend to believe that is the reality in life. How sad and untrue is that statement!

In life, we face all kinds of difficulties and temptations, and if given a chance, we notice that at most we will be able to sustain this for a short period but to prolong it, it will take a lot of endurance. Statistics have also shown that the majority of people lose interest in their couples in the 3rd year of marriage, be it in gay or heterosexuals. So, statistics have shown their results, how many of us can consider ourselves part of the percentage that have really lived through it all? I’m no love guru but I know that for a relationship to work out, it will amount to a lot of endurance and also trust. One of the key points in it is also the ability to really understand and tolerate one another's shortcomings.


Some also say, absence makes the heart yearn for each other...true, and to add to it, too much of a good thing is also bad for you. Balance comes into mind here. What do you think?

Monday, September 17, 2007

DISTRATCTIONS, DISTRACTIONS...


i have been distracted...



I confess that I have been spending some of time from blogging in here to other pursuits. Apart from the addictive FACEBOOK, I have been downloading movies and also some porn. Yes, I admit, I do download them at times but only those with good titles but I'm not an addict to them though, cause I find them to be a bore at times. But, I do love those who have a storyline.


So, if I'm not into my FACEBOOK, then what else am I into? Ok, don't judge me too harshly now ye people of good and pure heart, for I am a sinner...yes I am into Xtube! Xtube is the opposite of Youtube. But in Xtube. as you know, X represents? No, not the X factor---duh!, Its Xplicit content.


Ok back to Xtube, what do I find it so interesting? Actually, what I'm amazed about this site is that the number of people submitting in their little wanky shots of video, their water sports sessions, their bath time hours, or what they usually do if they were with a person or persons. The salutation goes to those who actually show their own faces on it and given a choice, I do not think that I might have the balls to even show it (pardon the pun!)


However, I always believe that a person is entitled to their own choice of entertainment and the way one chooses them does not have to be in consent with others. Yes, they may have judgements about it, but do not stop others who have that choice to indulge in a little lusty session? After all, do not deny your human feelings, at times, it really feels good to have a release from the stresses of life, isn't it?


So, yeah, that is basically what I have been going about in my time during the weekend and no, I have not been gluing my self to it all the time, I do have my schedules for it. But, like all phases, I think this might pass. If you have yet to stop by it, I rather that you think twice about it or be snared into the devil's playground...hehehe!


want to join in me in the devil's playground...?

Saturday, September 15, 2007

FACEBOOK FEVER

argghh...moving to facebook soon




You know what guys...I'm now officially HOOKED on Facebook. My friends have been urging me to sign up for it for a long time now, but I have not done so, because I was lazy...yes but now, that I finally gave it a go, goodness...I'm already addicted to it.


I need to upload more photos of myself and also make new friends from it. I guess, that is the only way I can extend my network and also keep my dear precious ones? So, guys, what say you? Get a facebook if you do not have one...or if you have...add me?

Thursday, September 13, 2007

REST IN PEACE, ALVIN!





I will begin my post in remembrance of a friend of mine, Alvin who I found out passed away a few days ago. I did not even know about this until I was told by Diva Armani this evening, when I met her at the gym.


She mentioned that Alvin, a mutual friend of ours, committed suicide by jumping from the 7th floor of his condo in Villa Green. When she told me about this, I was taken aback. I remembered Alvin to be cheerful sort, blessed with a good job (he was a pilot) and best of all, possessed that kind of look that most of the girls out there would just die for. However, in his case, guys will fight with each other to get him, ok maybe, I'm just exaggerating a bit here but then again, most people who have seen him, remarked that he is a cute sort of guy.


But, his sudden demise and the way he chose to end his life, now that is a complete mystery to me and to DA. But, DA is much closer to him and I was perplexed with the sudden news. I interrogated DA inside out and she was also a complete blank about this. The fact that Alvin is just in his early 30's is also a point to take into account. So young at this age, and yet want to end all of it in this way? What was he thinking? What made him do it? Love? Money? Loneliness? Career? We still could not fathom why he would take that road?


My memories of Alvin is one that likes to smile a lot, has this sweet enduring and charming sort of smile (I'm a sucker for people who possesses this unique smile) and very funny. He can joke at almost any situation and turn a terrible situation into a farnee one...



My dear Alvin, hope that wherever you are now at this moment, I hope you have found the peace you had longed for. Hope that your soul will rest in peace!

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

QUAKE IN PETALING JAYA

Approximately about 1915 hours this evening, there was a small swaying feeling felt at the 3rd floor meeting room. At that time, I was having a TL meeting with my Manager. As my manager was delivering his inputs to us, we felt a swaying feeling. In fact, I had felt it much earlier but dismissing that perhaps I was already hungry and tired. I really thought that I was going to faint but before I did that, my Manager voiced out and told us why is the room shaking?

There and then, we realized that this was not small swaying feeling, it was part and parcel of the earthquake that strucked Bengkhulu, in Sumatra. Strangely, Bengkhulu is actually situated at the west coast of it and the epicenter struck somewhere along the Indian Ocean. But, because the magnitude was 8.2 (as reported in CNN just now), someone who is located at the 2nd or 3rd floor will feel it, what more if you live in a high rise condominium?


The best part about this is that I have never felt such a swaying before and before it actually stopped, I believe it was a good 10 minutes of it. Initially, if you do not move, you will feel a faint feeling but once you decide to move, the impact of that feeling is not so great. I really felt like a sick feeling at first, but then, realizing that I was part of what was something great and yet also scary, it made me feel the urge to pen up my thoughts on it...and my words to describe this is--- AWESOME!!


Having said that, my thoughts also go to the ones who are suffering at the moment, those who may have lost their homes or loved ones...hopefully, there will not be any major casualties involving lives like the one in Peru.



i feel the earth move under my feet....

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

THE ONE WITH THE SPINSTER

how do i solve a problem like S..P..I..N..S..? (to the tune of how do i solve a problem like Maria)





I really do not know how to handle this particular colleague of mine. I have tried all kind of ways to handle her, encourage her and at the same time, give her my support but to no avail. You must be wondering who am I referring to no?

When we had a restructuring in our department some time ago, there were to be appointed 3 Team Leaders (TL) who will lead 3 different teams. Handling different expertise and also various portfolios, it was decided that the TL will have staff (previously all colleagues, all same level) under them to supervise. So, the company created 3 senior posts to overlook the other staffs. I was honored to be appointed as a TL and was given this other area which I was totally not familiar with. But, I took it into stride.

In my area, there are 5 other staff under me and amongst them, was the other lady who is very much older than me. The rest of them are younger than I am, so I guess I have the opportunity to have them look up to me as a TL and given my post, they respect me out of it. The senior lady, whom I shall call, SPINS (SPinster In Need of Sex) has from day one shown me non of the above. SPINS reluctantly had to follow rules set by the Management and the kind of respect given to me was actually forced, more likely fake too! I never really minded that, because to me, I only treated her as a colleague and nothing more. And, being the docile me (yes it is hard to believe at times), I allow her at times to do whatever she wants. I never regulated her nor have I ever wanted to show my authority on her, in fact, I always give her face but being consensual at all times.


So, SPINS act as she is in her own little world. The fact that she is in her mid-40s and yet to be married, always get the butt of jokes from the other staff. In reality, SPINS does throw a tantrum at times like smashing down the phone, talks rudely to the other staffs from the other departments and so on. But, on the plus side, she does possess a lovely heart, whereby whenever she goes anywhere for a trip, everyone in the department will get a little trinket or souvenir from her. However, the downside has weight down most of the time, and this has left her to be a source of mouth piece even to the Management level.


Imagine, if Management cannot handle her, they let her to me hoping that I might weave some magic on her? Excuse me, I'm gay...how do I handle such a situation? The most I can be feisty in my approach or even bitchy...but to pally with her on the tantrums and character, I think, Management has too much great faith in me! Alas, a job has to be done, and being a professional as I am, I will do my best to perhaps change her? Even if not the ambitious 100% goal I have set, at least some small percentage might suffice in this instance? (I wholeheartdly set my heart and mind to try to resolve this problematic lady)


Another problem that SPINS faces is that her salary level has been capped! Yes, capped meaning to say that if she does not get a promotion soon, or the Management decides to let her handle some other posts, she will be forever at the level of salary until the day she reaches retires...isn't that sad? That is the reality in the Corporate world.


When I heard that she was having her salary capped, even if she has thrown shit on me or even not given me the enough respect that I would be honored to receive from her, I still have a heart for her to ensure that she might get some sort of reprieve. I spoke to Management behind her back and asked them if there is anything that she might be given, but Management told me bluntly that SPINS is not performing the level expected of a person to be promoted or given additional task. In fact, Management told me that they were very disappointed whenever SPINS was given some tasks to do, SPINS will throw it to someone junior or complain about it or even worse, do not show any initiative to change her perception of things. I mean, yes the situation is bleak, but you do not drag yourself into that level. You will have to survive and grow new ideas to tackle this setback.


In a matter of fact, I have been honest with her. I told her and advice her what she should do. I even told her that she need to improve on many levels and having dissected her and analysing her problem, the main obstacle is her behavior and character. If these two can be changed over night, I have no doubt she can soar even higher than me. SPINS is a smart lady but I find that all that is put to waste when no effort of her own inner self wants to exert that kind of change. Instead, she wastes her time on complaining and if she really does not like what she is doing, she should look for another job outside. Its not that she does not have the ability to find another one, but over the years, one has become too accustomed to the surroundings that one does not want to leave that safety net that they have built over the years.


I really feel sorry for her and at the same time, try to put myself into her shoes. The only solution is to perform and show one is able to do it, organize it and most important thing of all, work smart not hard....but to SPINS, this has all fallen to deaf ears! Or mayb all she needs is a good fuck? Anyone out there willing unclog the drains of a SPINSter?

Monday, September 10, 2007

ENCOUNTERS OF THE PLEASANT KIND - PART TWO


i have a swimmer's body...




As I was still unscrambling the hints that this young friend of mine was feeding me, I began to formulate my own investigative actions to check on him. He looked like a nice average looking guy, not too tall; about the same height as I am i.e. about 175cm and was well toned especially his chest area. His shoulders built are very nice, very shapely and also his entire presentation was not bad.

In fact, I’ve noticed that he has given me that “look” since last Monday when I was in the gym. At first, I never noticed him but I realized that our lockers seem to be very near to each other. Since, this is the first time, I have been “looked at”, the shyness of me, will always droop my head low as to avoid eye contact. Yes, I’m a shameful coward when it comes to people eyeing me. I never have that kind of courage to go up to them and ask them what they are staring at? Most of the time, I will be very conscious of my apparel or even my presentation, as if something is wrong with me, that I’m attracting other people’s glances. All my life, I’ve been never noticed, so I don’t think I will be noticed thus far.

Since, my turf have been invaded, nothing much to lose, I decided to go on with making a fool of myself by actually engaging a conversation with a total stranger in the gym. This time, it was not the usual sort of hi or bye.

Me: You just joined CF?
Guy 22: Yes, like a few weeks ago.
Me: No wonder I have not seen you before, how do you find it here?

At this point our conversation started very superficial and only touched base on our current surroundings. We need to always build up the crescendo to reach the climax of our investigations.

Guy22: “I noticed you join the PT sessions”.
Me: “Yes, this is because I seldom have the self-discipline to work out and I get bored very easily”. (This is the truth)
Guy22: “You have a nice body…”
Me (smiling sheepishly): “Thank you, so do you.” (In such a situation, one needs to return the compliment based on what one sees. It can be a lie or the plain truth, but in his case, Guy22 does possess a nice body, very well defined as I had explained earlier)
Guy22: “That’s because I swim a lot. I represented my home state”. Me: “Oh, so you are not local, I gather?”
Guy22: “No, I actually represented Penang. But, its funny, my actual hometown is in Alor Star, but because my education was all in Penang, I represented them.”
Me: “No wonder you have broad shoulders and they are well defined…”(my eyes at its usual scanning pace)
Guy22: “Yeah and I also play some sports, so all in all, it makes me a very sporty person.”
Me: “I can tell from that. Now, you told me that your office is just down the road…May I know where it is?”
Guy22: “Oh, you know behind Shangri-La…”
Me: “You mean your office is in PanGlobal Building?”
Guy22: “Yes, yes…how did you know?”
Me22: “I just guessed. Is your whole family here? Are you living with them?”
Guy22: “No, my family is still in Alor Star. I’m living with my granny, there are the only relatives who have moved down here”.

From here, I began to drill this guy into revealing more information about his family, his friends and also work. From my amateurish investigative skills, I realized that he is a child # 3 and he has 5 other siblings. (3 sisters and 2 brothers)

Apart from that, his family is a middle-income family, he was sent to Penang at very young age to study at Jit Sin in BM (Bukit Mertajam). From there, he excelled in sports but not so much in studies. His main ambition was to become a hairstylist but circumstances made him change his views to become a cameraman instead (like someone who is involved in post-production). He works for Pan Global and gets to travel especially to cover some of the circuit races in this region. He has been to China twice and he has his uncle to thank for giving him the guidance and also tips to become a professional cameraman. He is attending classes in the evening to brush up his English skills and one day aspires to become someone important in his field. So, yadda yadda, all this is about him but in what relations does it mean for him to actually strike up a conversation with me?

And the most important fact that we need to decipher here is that, is he gay or straight or bi? What was his intention to talk to me? Why did he choose me, out of the other eye candies around me? What makes me so special that he wants to specifically target me? Is there a hidden agenda behind all these?
Before I can actually get all these answers, he had to leave as it was already 9pm. He apologized for cutting short his conversation with me and left me standing there, high and dry…
Well never mind, I still have my time since Monday will come and then, I will be able to continue my little interrogation.

This evening, I did see my Guy22 but he was already leaving. Surprised, I asked him what time he was in the gym? He told me that he was there at 4.15pm, and I replied, “So early?” He told me that he was let off early today and I saw him leaving for the showers. As for me, I ventured to do my cardio exercises and after a good 15 minutes, I went to the machines to concentrate on my lower back. As I was doing my stuff, I noticed him going down the stairs. He walked over to where I was and then, to my surprise, held out his hand to me. I was like? Huh? So straight…shaking hands? I played along and he held my hand in full view of the public, but I let it go as I do not like to create attention.

Guy22: “See you again.”
Me: “When?”
Guy22: “Tomorrow, I will be in the gym again.”
Me: “What time?”
Guy22: “6 pm…”
Me: “Ok, see you then.”

And then, he bade his final adieu to me and walked off.

As he walked down the stairs one more time, he looked back to me and parted me with one of his infamous infectious smile.






catch u tomorrow...

Sunday, September 9, 2007

ENCOUNTERS OF THE PLEASANT KIND - PART ONE

u come here often?


Usually I will never chat with anyone in the gym unless I know them. My routine is quite simple when I go to the gym. Its either to attend my PT or to go for either one of the cardio classes or better still run on the treadmill. I do not like to lose my focus when I'm concentrating on them, hence, I very rarely look around (even though eye candies abound everywhere in CF)


Only when I'm not doing anything or catching my breath, will my eyes then start its scanning process. In reality, I see more than I approach people, due to my nature of being shy and not aggressive to talk to strangers. Moreover, my mom's influence is pretty much strong in this department, for when I was very young, I was already being indoctrinated to not talk to strangers nor to make any eye contacts. So, to this day, I seldom look out to strangers unless I really need to meet them face to face, then, I have no choice.

Last Friday evening, a very strange thing happened while I was in the locker room changing off my sweaty shirt and literally stripping off to run to the shower stalls. Guy beside me looked at me, I noticed him doing so, and I avoided eye contact almost immediately. Not wanting to start off very awkwardly, I pretended to look into my bag.


Guy22: Hi, going home?

Me (looking up): Err, yes, about too, but will shower first. (At this point, I was still pretending to look back to my bag and pretended to search for something)

Guy22: Nice bag.

Me (lame pick up line): Well, its free from CF, didn't you get one?

Guy22: Eh, no, by the way, what do you think of CF?

Me: Not bad, I kinda enjoy working out here (for obvious reasons, really)

Guy22: I've just joined, my office is down the road here, actually behind Shang-Ri La Hotel and my house is at Jalan Bukit Bintang.



At this point, I really wondered aloud in my heart as to why, he was telling me where he worked and also where he stayed. My mind was racing like the F1 circuit trying to piece together all this hints, this guy was feeding me. I was really puzzled and then I decided to unwind these little hints...


** to be continued**

Saturday, September 8, 2007

INVASION



Last night, I went to watch "The Invasion" with CK. The movie talks about an invasion of alien virus that takes over the whole emotional side of humans. They are still left with their memories, likes and dislikes but show no emotional outburst whatsoever.


Adapted from an earlier movie of the same name, the 1956 movie titled "Invasion of the Body Snatchers". I caught the movie on Astro's Star movies some time ago. The original movie was in black and white. The plot was the same, aliens trying to take over the human race and by doing so, sucks out all the humans ability to react to emotions.


However, for the present day, the plot is the same but with a slightly modification being placed in it. The beat of the movie gradually ascends but there were slight portions that could have been deleted off. The acting by Nicole Kidman, I found her pretty but then coming to action packed themes, I personally feel that she is not suitable for it. There were scenes where she was expected to show urgency and get the audience going but there were some salvation towards the end when, the momentum of the movie picks up very fast from there. Throughout it, it was kinda plain sailing; Daniel Craig (last seen in James Bond) did not take off his shirt and what a bad idea. It would have been good to show him flex off some of his muscles out there. The child actor was good, really enjoyed his acting.


Overall, I would recommend it to fans of sci-fi. There were moments in the film which I really felt my adrenaline pulse pulsating to a high note watching 'those scenes' (not revealing here). If you had nothing much to do and want to just allow your fantasy mind to over work themselves, then go watch INVASION, it might also help you to remember these 3 golden rules:-


1. DO NOT TRUST ANYONE


2. DO NOT SHOW EMOTIONS


3. DO NOT SLEEP




Thursday, September 6, 2007

I'VE BEEN SMITTEN



never felt this way before...


Have you ever come across a situation whereby you just met someone very casually and that someone actually puts a full imprint of them in your life? You have this vague meeting with them, that did not even lasts for a mere 5 minutes and your role in this was just to facilitate some "hello" and "good byes".


You stood at one corner, having to only see the whole action in play and what you do is just stand there and observe. You notice the guy who is talking to your friend to exuberate such a charming spell, that you just look at him mesmerized and not wondering what the hell am I standing there for?


The minute he flashes that charming smile and that endearing charisma in him, you feel all swooned up and melted inside. You don't even think the world is moving now, everything stops at that precise moment. Its a feeling that brings you to a higher level that even better than any drugs out there. Its a sort of chemistry 101, that even your best chemistry teachers did not teach you. You feel elevated when you see that smile, that charm and that enduring gesture.


You feel like hugging him that instantaneously and wanting to just not let go off him.I know that by doing so too, your previous troubles are faded away for the time being and you feel very comfortable. I believe that I have found that elusive guy who did all this to me, and I did not even dare to bat another eyelid on him...why, because I was shy!


Gosh, the only place I can openly meet him will be through my dreams and through that medium, voice out what I have so wanted to say...if only, I had the real presence of a chance! I guess I should allow my fantasy to just live on...


**fyi, this has been going on for a week now**

Wednesday, September 5, 2007

EYE CANDY SPOTTED AT THE SERVICE CENTER


cute or not...?





a close up view....


I sent my car for my tri-monthly servicing and in walks this hottie, and how could I not resist to snap a picture of him. I was very nervous doing it but then again, it was not crowded in the waiting area. Was able to snap it without his knowledge. (it could also be because of his mechanic uniform that gave me an instant "turn-on")


The side doesn't look appealing but he has this boy-ish charm and guy next door kind of look when he talked and I didn't have the balls to snap that. From this vantage point, I think it nice to share this with you guys...like they say, if you see a nice one, make sure you snap it before they even notice it.


Gosh, I'm turning very daring these days...

Tuesday, September 4, 2007

ROUGH DIAMONDS.

This evening, I decided to go to California's Gym located at MidValley. Its been a while since I have been there. Since, I usually go the one located in StanChart, this time I decided to pay a little visit since my last time I was there.


I've always found the gym in MV very spacious, not sure why but it sure is nice to see the place all huge and no partitions abound at that areas. There is the pool which is the also part of the attraction and the numerous cardio machines situated at the top floor, proves to be a bonus. I'm not sure why, but each time, I will have this feeling of ample space when I go there. In comparison to StanChart, I found that place to be huge also and breath taking, not so much of the view, but the steps that one has to proceed on to the locker rooms.

I go to MidValley...how about you?



The locker rooms in MV might seem a bit puzzling with all of its zig zag structure but bear in mind, it only adds to the fun of turning around one corner and perhaps discovering something delicious waiting for you. Its a maze like one can find in some dingy sauna but in this respect, this was much brighter and cleaner? Overall, I find the lockers in MV to be a bit cleaner and more in volume as compared to StanChart. However the sauna and the steam rooms, hmm, I find the ones in StanChart very roomy whilst any claustrophobic person might suffer an attack in its sauna room.


In each shower stall, the curtain that hangs in StanChart is the typically boring type whilst the ones in MV has an upper plastic which is transparent. As one walks past the stalls, one can clearly define the upper body and the bottom part is made of non-transparent stuff. So, you get to see the upper body and being a voyeuristic person like me, it so much of a hassle! Its like showing a bit and not showing all...all I can say its like telling a the story and half way, there is not continuation.


As I meander through the crowds this evening, I noticed that the type of persons that attend MV is also very different from SC's. One things for sure, I get to see a lot more of guys and I mean all walks of life type of persons. Usually in SC, one will notice executive or managerial posts coming in...in short very professional in their outlook. However, in MV, they come in all shapes and sizes, all industries and all sectors. You would never guess where this hot guy standing next to you works in? Maybe he is a self proprietor? Or maybe he is just a local actor or model? I'm not sure but for sure, I did see SK (that model that appeared for the Alliance Bank ad) and a host of other normal type of guys (equally hot and cute) who would not normally be seen in SC. I would describe them as rough diamonds...you should know what I mean by this.


u like my biceps?



This brings me to the question, is there a certain tag line that defines the gym that I go to? Is there a type of crowd that will hang out there? Or is these gyms segregated along these lines? I'm not sure but from my observation, I have noticed that I would prefer the crowd in SC as they would be very mild mannered in their workout, but in MV, you will get the type who will not care about mannerisms, as long as they get their workout done, that's fine with them.


work on those chest baby...




After finishing my workout, I met an old friend of mine who is an entrepreneur. We chatted for a while, catching up old stuff and updating ourselves and then I asked him what draws him to MV (even though he was an Infinity member). One things for sure, the distance (his business is situated in PJ) and the added facilities like the swimming pool. But, overall, he likes the crowd in MV, as the guys that go there, are really his type. Cute, Fresh and Hot...were his 3 words to me.


As I looked around me as he explained to me, I can feel why my friend uttered those words...for I find them to be hot and desirable. too. I'm beginning to conclude that most of these PLU guys who used to be Fitness First members have all migrated to Cali and besides, Cali's charges are much cheaper than FF, even if they have like 3 branches? (new branch Sunway!)


With that, I'm certainly going to go to MV a lot more now, especially on my non-PT days. Like they say "cuci mata" (Have my eyes cleansed)

Monday, September 3, 2007

VOYEUR ME ON...

what are you looking at........??

Voyeurism....what is it that makes some people get turned on?


Accordingly, voyeurism is ...
A person who derives sexual gratification from observing the naked bodies or sexual acts of others, especially from a secret vantage point.




You go to the gym especially the locker rooms or any changing rooms for that matter, there will be voyeurs lurking around, their eyes locked at their corner scanning even better than any AWACS. Their modus operandi is such that they will pretend to pack their things or getting ready to shower, but upon checking this hot guy coming out from the showers or about to hit the showers, and the minute, this hot guy takes off his first piece of clothing, there goes the Voyeur in action. Pretending to pack or take out some stuff, the Voyeur will stall time and will take whatever necessary actions just to get a glimpse of the hot guy taking off whatever he has. The Voyeur will have considered he has scored a BONUS when the hot guy strips down naked!


Voyeurs in action can also be seen in toilets too and if there is "glory holes", that will be considered heavenly to their standard. However, Voyeurs do not only operate to that confines, they are everywhere. Lest you know it, they will appear out of nowhere. However, unsuspecting victims are usually the ones who will know not their operating modes.



I do admit that I'm part of the Voyeur group too. If there is an eye candy, definitely I will like to take my time to savor each and every part of that candy. However, I'm not a hardcore Voyeur, for on a scale from 1 to 10, I might rate myself a 5, which is actually a middle of the sort of person. However, there's a very good friend of mine who is a big time Voyeur. I shall name him Sticky Eyes (for his eyes can just glue on to any sort of actions). If there is an award for being the best Voyeur in town or even the whole of Malaysia, SE will certainly gain that award. Not only once but some say, maybe 5 times in a row.


So one boring Saturday evening (happened many years ago), when I had no plans and SE called me out for dinner. A simple dinner and after that, not wanting to do any clubbing or even watch any movies, SE suggested that I go back to his place. No, don't get your wrong ideas here...SE has been my buddy for many years now, and there is certainly no sexual attachment whatsoever for him and we are just platonic buddies, who enjoy each other's company as we both can joke and laugh off silly with our antics.


I asked him what will we be doing there. And he told me its going to be a surprise. SE lives in a condo and his unit is actually very high. Opposite of his condo, there are rows and rows of apartments around there. Once we got to his place, he asked me to follow him to his bedroom. When I got in there, there was a telescope and a pair of binoculars standing at the side. I was amazed!


SE instructed me to take a peek at into the telescope and what I saw was this unit opposite of his condominium. It was so fucking clear that I could actually tell what brand the television was from that other apartment. SE told me to scan around and like a good pupil I did..and lo and behold, I actually saw this guy taking off his clothes in his room. Apparently, SE had his telescope positioned in such a way that I was able to peer into this particular unit, and later, I found out why.



In that unit, there was this guy, about 20-ish, and had a good body. I could see every detail of his expression and also how the other part of the body looked like. I was beginning to enjoy this....guilty as I was, peering into other people's privacy, I totally enjoyed what I was doing. Next, SE directed me to look at another unit and another until, that night, we particularly scanned the whole place and the apartments beyond the ones we were scanning.



All in all, from the time I got to his place i.e about 10-ish right up to 3 a.m., we managed to see many things happening but at different intervals of time. There were people changing and mind you, I noticed that people who lived at high floors, do not actually close their windows; people arguing, people watching porn, people making out and one thing that I have always kept etched in my memory was of this guy who lived at the 3rd floor. He will be in the living room, half of his sliding glass door will be covered with curtain, the other half exposed as if to invite people to see him. According to SE, this guy will watch porn every other night, and especially on Saturdays, he will lay by the side of the sofa and completely stark naked, will play with his dick. He gets a turn on watching porn and slowly playing with his dick. However, at times, he will never cum and if you are lucky, according to SE, he might just cum. But, that night, after a few hours, I just gave up.



I'm bored looking...




The first few hours was actually fun because you never know what people might be up to, and since its dark (the bedroom lights are not turned on), no one will know that you are actually having a stake out, but in a different sort of way. But, as the hours progressed on, I felt a tinge bit of bored and didn't have that thrill tinkling in me anymore. Like a new toy that was good for a few hours, this one certainly took my toil. But, I must admit it was fun just to see another person's actions while they are in their own comfort zone.


SE admitted to me that at times, when he was bored and nothing much to do, he will just spend hours looking at his neighbors. Sometimes, it will last to the next day and Voyeuring during day time is a bit too risky as you might get caught. Furthermore, day time, nothing much to see as the rooms will not be lit up, hence, it will be dark. So good was he that, he can tell me about the characteristics that lived in the apartments opposite. From this floor to that floor, he can tell me what their pattern of lives are, what they do (I'm guessing) and what time they actually go out or come home. However, to me, I don't have that kind of patience after a while, so I leave it to my dear friend SE to complete and update me of any news.


SE nowadays do not practice this anymore. He has finally found something to keep him occupied and that is a boy friend. So there is no more time to peer through the windows anymore but then again, at times, I do wonder...maybe SE might just give me a call one day and tell me that some new hottie has just moved in? And, I'm invited for a stake out again?

Sunday, September 2, 2007

HALF A CENTURY OLD



So we have reached the big 50...half a century old and our nation is still growing on strong-er? I'm not sure what it means to be independent because I was not part of the generation that grew up to feel the sense of being colonized. All those thoughts about us being ruled by the British and how the British treated us Asians in the most humiliating way was edged right into our minds since we took up history.


But, looking back, did the British actually left all those unhappy memories? Yes, the Caucasians always think that Asians are either stupid or lazy and that the only way to control them was to patronize them and give them the feeling of goodwill, then they will expect the Asians to kowtow to them as masters.


However, I look at the positive side of what the British left us. They gave us a inedible part of our life...education. They introduced us common laws, the magistrate and the bureaucracy. Although I'm not really a fan of the last part, but it showed us how systematic they were. Although they were not a fan to set up schools, it was the missionaries who did that enduring task of educating the local children. A good command of the English language enabled those who were proficient in them to work in prestigious levels for the British Government or the Malaya Government at that time. And, the best of all, you carried a British passport and you were considered as British subjects.


I'm sure that the call for Independence by the early forefathers were even more prevalent at that time because they felt injustice being thrust upon them. And, the group that felt the most were the Malay people as they felt that their own land was being taken over by these "orang putehs". Hence, the word MERDEKA means more to them as this showed that they had the ability of self-governing.


Fast forward to the year 2007, and looking how much this nation has progressed, one would feel that yes, we have indeed progressed well. We have nice tall buildings, modern amenities and also transit transportation available. However, these are just facades of what we see. How about the day to day interaction between the races?


We have become very polarized. The races stick to their own and view each other with suspicion. Race, Religion and Rights - the 3 Rs have became very evident in our daily lives. Each race is racing to defend its own territory but to which level would one succeed?


The post era of 9-11 has mushroomed a huge part of the radicalism factions that are so evident and prevalent. We view each other with suspicious motives and brand certain people of being terrorists. On top of that, we have a bunch of Ministers and Member of Parliaments who are still living in the past era. Instead of being national leaders, they have become more racial in their assertions. Religion has become the cornerstone of what is to determine the compass of this nation. Despite the Constitution which is also our Social Contract stating that this country is a parliamentary democracy (secular) and that Islam is the official religion (in ceremonial status), our leaders declare that we are an Islamic state. However, to live in an Islamic state means, we live by a council of Ulamaks who will determine the course of the country just like Iran. We will have Ayatollahs who will lead the country and the non-Muslims will have no say in an Islamic country. Their freedom to express themselves and also the right to belief will be further curtailed. In this course, non-Muslims who are also known as Infidels will be asked to convert to Islam, and if you don't, you will be subjected to a special tax. This tax declares that you are paying the conquerors and that you are the conquered subjects which is meaning to say, being a 2nd class citizen.


Although, the respect of religion should be uplifted at all times, its only these irresponsible aspirants would be national leaders who want to play to their gallery, will raise such uncouth statements. Its really demeaning to see that after half a century, we are not progressing forward but moving backwards to the draconian age old ways!


Again, one of the things that we definitely have left out is the other minority group in our nation. Although the Government wants to sideline us and deny our existence, there is indeed a huge group (and growing) Lesbians and Gays in this country. Do we have the same rights as what our Constitution enshrine to each citizen? Malays have a special position given in the Constitution and they are named "Bumiputeras" or sons of the soil....how about the other races who were born here? Don't we get that title too? Nope, its good that you are known as Malaysians because citizenship is a privilege, not a favor. And note, how many Indonesians have become PRs or even attain citizenship status by only staying in this country for a short while; as compared to those who have stayed here for years and fulfilled the Immigration ruling of 5 years, yet still do not get theirs?


The role of meritocracy doesn't really goes in sync with our present rulers because if they were to open up this all, it will mean that only a certain race will succeed. To me, in my opinion, its a farce to say that the indigenous people will fail because its only slapping upon their own face to look down on their people. Have faith in them, I'm sure that there are many of them succeeding even without the help of the Government. And, every situation will need a bitter pill, if one does not take it, then how is one going to progress further? Will it always be status quo?


Look at Singapore. They were expelled from the Federation because they were accused of being a danger to the harmony of this country. However, the road that they took brought them eventual success. From a 3rd world country to a 1st world and let it be known, they are younger than us in terms of Independence age. Its because they have a dedicated Government and for all their misgivings, things actually work in Singapore. Like a clockwise precision, everything is on time...but to us laid back people, I'm thinking that this might not work.


So, my intention of writing this is not to incite any hatred nor any violent uprisings or even to the extend of belittling my own country. Its because I care and love this nation of ours, I do not want us to regress further. I want our nation to progress faster, do away all of the unnecessary ways, be more pragmatic, don't have selfish leaders who only want to take it all for them and their relatives, and best of all, serve justice to all. We are not racist, we embrace all and remember this, we are all born from one parent, the first parents on earth, Adam and Eve.



Our blood is the same color, we have the same set of organs in our bodies and though our skin color is different, we are humans. Ponder on this and pray that our nation will have sensible leaders who will lead us to greater heights not pull us down further. We need new impetus to go on...for if we do not do so, we would eventually lose out and the next 50 years will see this nation going nowhere.


So, this is my wish, let's banish our hatred and misgivings. Live as one people, voice out if we do not feel comfortable with it, but use sensible language. We need to live as one people, and remember always that we are humans first and last. We all have feelings and we are all equal before the Almighty, as He has created us all and made us into so many nations...therefore, will we want to destroy what He has laid before us?

** this blog is not intended to step down on anyone's belief or value, its my own personal opinon on what I see around me, and if I have indeed offended anyone because of my forthright writing, I do offer my sincere apologies**




my wish for Malaysia is to be open and progressive, catering justice and equality to all without looking at race, religion or creed....